Reflecting on the Past: Embracing a New Life
Today, I’ve been thinking a lot about my past. It’s a journey that feels like a lifetime ago, and I realize now that I could never go back to my old life. I don’t think I would fit in anymore. I remember in 2008 when I first started attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings. It was a pivotal moment for me. I heard someone say that Narcotics Anonymous ruined them from ever being able to enjoy getting high again. At the time, it sounded strange, but now it makes perfect sense. When you don’t know, you don’t know. But once you know, you know. In my past, when I was using, I fit that lifestyle so well. It was a part of me, and I couldn’t imagine anything different. But now, after living a clean and sanctified life, I understand that there is a better way to live. The clarity and peace I have found are incomparable to the chaos of my past. If I ever went back, I wouldn’t know how to fit in. The person I was then is not who I am now. The experiences and growth I...