Reflecting on the Past: Embracing a New Life


    Today, I’ve been thinking a lot about my past. It’s a journey that feels like a lifetime ago, and I realize now that I could never go back to my old life. I don’t think I would fit in anymore. I remember in 2008 when I first started attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings. It was a pivotal moment for me. I heard someone say that Narcotics Anonymous ruined them from ever being able to enjoy getting high again. At the time, it sounded strange, but now it makes perfect sense. When you don’t know, you don’t know. But once you know, you know.
   In my past, when I was using, I fit that lifestyle so well. It was a part of me, and I couldn’t imagine anything different. But now, after living a clean and sanctified life, I understand that there is a better way to live. The clarity and peace I have found are incomparable to the chaos of my past. If I ever went back, I wouldn’t know how to fit in. The person I was then is not who I am now. The experiences and growth I’ve had since then have shaped me into someone who values a different kind of life. I’m thankful today that I have a choice. I don’t have to live that lifestyle anymore.
    Every day, I choose to embrace this new life. It’s not always easy, but it’s worth it. The support from Narcotics Anonymous and the community I’ve found there have been instrumental in my journey. They have shown me that it’s possible to change, to grow, and to find a new path. So, as I reflect on my past, I do so with gratitude. I am grateful for the lessons learned, for the strength gained, and for the opportunity to live a life that I am proud of. I am thankful for the choice today, and I am committed to continuing on this path of recovery and self-discovery.














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  1. AnonymousOctober 3, 2024 at 11:23 AM

    Keep on the journey you are on and God will be with you always! I am so glad that we have met and you are beautiful person. We will always have a link together from this time forward.

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